Just do something half interesting!

Hey folks, as thought, I have missed out on actual blogging. One topic I wish to cover tonight is ... friends.

What is a friend? Dictionary.com tells us that a friend is most commonly: "A person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard."

This does make sense because if you like someone you do regard them as person you wish to interface more with. However, as with everything in life, something that is one thing to you may be completely different to another. A friend for me is someone who asks the question, of which I feel truly bonds people. That question is quite simply "You?" All through my life, I have had people in my life that I could call "friends." However I more see people as I know you, your name for example. For someone to be my friend they have to want to engage with me. This seems to be a massive problem in my life. Whilst I was at primary school (ages 5-12) I had a couple of friends, people I knew and then occasionally a best friend. Then whilst at high school (ages 12-18) I had a best friend for 3 of those years. He and I were almost not seen apart but then he grew up I guess and I had a very difficult time in dealing with this. I had to realise that it wasn't that he matured and it was in fact he never asked "You?". At that time it seemed to be where kids would date, drink, smoke and maybe do drugs. I wasn't included any of these things but probably because I wasn't a cool kid. I really wasn't interested in any of these things, I just wanted to game and enjoy my time with friends that really knew me. The friends that I had from primary school that also went to my high school left around the time I was 17. I then realised that I was almost completely alone in reality and this upset me but not to the point where I let it affect me.

I was such a gamer, I had become a nerd. I would go in to online chat rooms and talk to hundreds of people I never met or knew in any way. I had a place where I could go "Hey, how are you?" They would then reply "Fine, thanks. You?" It's incredible. Simply by people saying one word to me they have instantly gained some respect of mine. So much of the modern world has become a self-obsessed place. I look at things in the world, the increase of prices on anything, bad manners on TV and streets, complete rudeness between strangers. We now live in world where you better look at yourself because no one else will. This is where I think friends change the way I live. If I think someone if truly a friend, I want them beside me at all time. In reality though, that's not possible because as of right now, I feel like I have work friends and online friends. My only true friend is, thankfully, my girlfriend. I've been with her for 7 years now and she still wants to know about my day. That to me is bliss. I think this is where I "fail" at keeping friends. I want to be all or nothing and not a thing in between.

A friend for me is someone who replies "You?"